Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Why do I have a feeling that history is repeating itself? Because it just did. The same reason came up again and it bit me in the butt again. The last time I could understand like 50% of it but this time I clearly was clueless.. I didn't know that this would be my undoing. Am I wrong to become like that? Did I want to be equipped with such qualities.. Yes I do that's y I did all these things to get here. But it seems that me arriving at such a place makes others feel different.
Now that this has happened. I seriously duno wad to do to... Should I cont to keep the faith and "work" for it or should I just give up and be miserable for like 2 days (this is all I give myself to wallow in self pity)? What should I do? I guess this is god's way of telling me that my initial decision to follow my heart was wrong. I would be much better off following what my brain says. Without me being wilful and following my heart none of this would happen. Is it what god is trying to tell me? Please let me know please!! I seriously cannot believe that I can get this stupid and the best of all gullible! I keep saying how good/intelligent Im at such things but apparently im not!! Can someone pls help me?! I guess not because it's something that I gotta settle it myself and I hope to gain some favourable cooperation... like big time.
Diana still hasn't replied. Im extremely grateful to Andy that he talked to me ytd nite abt this. I mean without the talk ytd nite I wouldn't be even sitting here typing all these now so calmly. Anyways... it is not as bad/serious as the way I make it out to be... So i guess I will just have to chill?
ergh can those pple pls lemme work in peace? stop calling and stuff!! Just lemme type and slowly sit this out can?!?! I mean I seriously dun mind for some holy intervention thou... But the rest just shut up and leave me alone can?!?! I would need some peace and quiet pronto.
What should I do on Fri?!?! Should I cont or should I just be determined and give it up altgt? Pls help me!! O holy lord pls help me!!!!!!! Why can't things be simpler. i cannot believe im so suay till like that. Karma? I wonder. I have nvr treated anyone like tt so why now the karma? Someone help pls!! I dun understand why ytd this time I was like basking in joy and now 24hrs later im like this wallowing in self-pity. Someone pls help me.
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